Hello Readers.
*takes and deep breath and lets it out* Okay! So. My "fiance" or rather my boyfriend: Zine.
Lives in Oregon! and Me? I live in Rhode Island...let me count the miles for you!
Over 3,0750+ miles (i searched google) now that is very far. I live on the east cost he lives on the west cost. Yeah it is very stressful. I'm so tired of explaining where he lives and getting that: is-she-out-of-her-mind look. i know its crazy, that dating someone that far away is nearly impossible. But i have been dating him for 3 years now. and i love him. <3
And again with the is-she-out-of-her-mind look. Okay readers! Let me explain. before you click the little red X. So i may never have met him in real life before. But i am No Fool. I checked on him. I looked at his friends, and even talked to some of them! I got his mother's facebook and her cell phone number. I also have the home phone. It took me only a matter of months to get these things. and he has a web cam. So i have seen his face. Yes people he is NOT a 60 year old man with a lack of sex. and a interest for young girls. On the contrary he is a 159 year old demon that has a body of a 17 year old. (that is a inside joke btw) But yeah. I hate to explain THAT little investigation to my friends and i dont talk about him much when i am talking to my shcool friends so when i say "Oh yeah my boyfriend is into that type of music too" they ask "you have a bf?" and im like " . . . YES for over THREE YEARS. . ." and then we go into that awkward moment after i explain it for the umpteenth time. The only person that i talk about "zine" with is my best friend Sammie! <3 She is that kind of bestie that sticks around with you after you almost burn the forest down and helps you stomp it out with her sneakers. And at the end of the day your both trying to get the ash and gunk off with bleach! The kind of best friend that will sneak out of the house with you in rain just to go to a friends house and shoot bee bee guns at one another. She is Sexy, Naughty and Bitchy (like the song) and Me? I'm the girl next door.
So back to Zine. i love him a lot. But like every long distant relationship we have our ups and downs. Mostly surrounded by the need to meet each other and "is he cheating?"
Now let me show you what Zine was Before we started dating.
Long Brown hair down to the middle of his back. Black eyes that seemed lifeless and dazed. He would have yellow nasty teeth. And drink alone or with his buddies all the time. and this Boy drank Whiskery! He would start fires and do dangerious shit that could get him killed. He would make himself bleed, and others bleed for personal pleasure. He would use woman for money and other things he wanted. (sexual ect.) And on top of it all he would Never go to school, but some how have amazingly good grades for someone as fucked up as him (im talking C+'s people) And one day, the day i met him. He was thinking about suicide. So there i was on Myspace (yes i met my soul mate on myspace! people think i was crazy) and he just logged into the chat. and i saw his display pic. and i thought "omg look at those eyes..." so i looked around his profile and his pictures and he was kinda "Ew" But i saw something there. i knew if he cleaned up he be HOT. So i went on to talking to him. He was busy trying to push some girl into fighting with him. Like you know "i.m. fights when your TYPING IN CAPS TO EXPRESS YOUR ANGER!" So i start going on his side and everyone else is on the girls and i think i surprised him. So we started to share emails and adding each other on myspace. I stayed up all night talking to this guy. And by the end of the night he told me how no body really ever cared about him and i said "well in that case *kisses* i love you <3" (you just said that so he wouldn't kill himself cuz you care to damn much) But as i grew to know him i grew to really love him.
And he changed so much for me. He stopped getting into fights, went to school more, stopped drinking and stopped using people, brushed his teeth (thank god) and cut his hair.
And the best of it all is after trying and trying to see him this Spring i am seeing him for the first time. Its going to be amazing. And i will tell you guys all about it later. As for now i am off watching Cartoon Network =3
~iqpid kimberley
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